A Poem

Heartbreak in Loss

When I lost my baby, still in my womb,

I heard well-meaning sympathies:

A new angel in heaven

Just wasn't meant to be

You can try again

I'm sorry.

Nothing was deep enough,

Succinct enough to reach through the pain.

My heart was heavy

Guilt was prevalent

Blame was abound.

Why did I lose my baby?

It must be because I drank a little on New Years, 

Before I knew of the baby.

It must be because he smoked, nicotine and poison.

It must be because we didn't love each other enough.

What if I wished this baby away because I thought I wasn't ready?

What if this was the last chance?

What if there were no more babies for me?

What if I was broken?

Slowly, so slowly,

Healing

Forgiveness

Life after loss.

Not the same, but not as devastating

Not quite as painful

As Time Heals Wounds.

 

~April Davidson

(Her story can be read here.)